Sitting here looking at my daughter in such astonishment, seeing apart of Adrian and me inside her is such a beautiful blessing. She is the reason why I would never live the life I did before she came into this world. The partying, drinking, being careless, etc doesn’t mount up to what I want to do for my bundle of joy. There are so many positive examples I’d like to, and will set for her. I don’t mean to be judgmental, but I just can’t grip why parents still put themselves before their kids. Yes, it’s okay to take a break and unwind, but only to a certain extent. (in my opinion)

Back in high school I was considered one of the “popular” girls. I guess that’s pretty cliche for a cheerleader. What amazes me the most is how little of contact/connection I have with all these people in the past. Out of how many people I was aquatinted with, I can honestly say I’m close to only ONE person; who I’ve know for 13 years. My point being is that my life has drastically changed over the years. One day as I was speaking to my best friend Marina over the phone, she mentioned what others were saying about “who I’ve become”. Take note she lives in San Jose where I grew up, I’m currently residing in Sacramento area. Comments like, “Oh have you seen Abby’s updates on fb, isn’t she so godly now, she’s so different”?

Honestly, I am beyond happy to have people say things like that about me. I am obviously doing what God intended me to do. His light is shining through me. For people to witness the change I’ve made in the past few years, to have gone through what I did to get here, it’s all noticeable. I will continue to speak the gospel regardless of what anyone thinks/says about me. I will live my life doing the best I can to live up to God’s expectations. All for my daughter. I pray every night that one day she will too decide to be a woman of Christ. Thank you God for making me who I am.

Our Father God’s day! The sabbath day. The message was awesome, give it all to the Lord, be thankful for what you have, and stop complaining about what you don’t have. Ava got to see her grandma (my mom) today, she also went to Lolo’s grave for the first time! :) I just get this warm feeling that he would’ve been a great grandfather to her (even if I have not yet to meet him myself).